Work is busy these days, but we're managing to do some fun family things too. Here's a peak.
We love our yard. These orchids are in full bloom right now.
Some serious crafting.
I found this one morning last week and it made my heart smile. Justice had all of our toothbrushes ready when breakfast was over.
Halloween. Justice wanted to be a Christmas Present. And Micah is happy in any dress-up clothes.
Building Daddy's birthday present one slow day at a time.
Target's 90% off post-halloween sale!
Beach time. Justice is learning to swim and it is so beautiful.
The hard work of cleaning the pack n play when you draw on it with a marker.
A BEAUTIFUL sculpture we WON at a recent fundraising event we attended for The Pregnancy Center in Kona. The sculpture is called Keiki Honu, and it is easily the most beautiful non-living thing in our home.
Lots of blocks these days, with both kiddos.
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Tuesday, November 3, 2015
Learning how to Talk about God
I had the opportunity, with a little help from family and friends, to join the Point Loma Center for Pastoral Leadership “Holy Conversations” event the last weekend of Oct. I was excited to interact with a few people I know – but have never met – and join a conversation that highlighted two things: generational perspectives on our place within the denomination (with an emphasis on the millennial generation); and our changing understanding of holiness and the church. And perhaps I will share a few thoughts from this event at another time.
But the story I want to share did not happen during this event, but rather on the way to it. I’ve been teaching a class on “Declaring the Gospel of God” for those called into ministry from our church. I’ve tried to teach this class with an eye toward the every day. The way we eat, practice justice, talk with our neighbors, show compassion, organize our daily routine, worship, and pray are all ways that Christians declare the Good News of God. In short, declaring the gospel of God is an everyday practice that involves the very mundane acts of life. And Christians practice these things publicly, for the world to see (what we call ‘witness’). But I should add, we share about God’s work in our life, putting words to our faith, not to persuade others, but because we can’t speak the truth of our own life without talking about God. As Thomas Long puts it:
At the most profound level, Christians talk about faith because it is a truly human act to want to tell the truth…Christians believe that we cannot tell the truth, not the whole truth, without talking about God, and if we cannot tell the whole truth, we cannot be fully alive as human beings.
Christians talk about God because we can’t talk about ourselves without talking about God. So here’s an example. I was staying at a hotel downtown and thought that I’d save money by taking the bus. Except my plans were disrupted from a missed flight in San Francisco which put me in my hotel room in San Diego just before 1am. I woke up at 4am Hawaii Time (7am in California) in order to get ready on time. I was tired, running late, and wasn’t interested in learning to navigate a new public transit system. So, I hailed a cab.
A tall slender man welcomed me into his world. And while I couldn’t make out exactly where his accent was from, I knew it wasn’t from San Diego. So I asked where he was from, and he told me Ohio (I was also certain his original home was not Ohio). We made small talk. I told him I was a pastor visiting an event planned by Point Loma Nazarene. He said I looked too young to be a pastor (I get that a fair amount). And then we arrived at my destination. I hadn’t asked him his name yet. I was actually hoping to finish browsing through the morning's news and relevant Facebook posts on the cab ride; so I introduced myself, shook hands, and got his name: Kareem.
I figured I would end up meeting someone at the event who could come the next morning to pick me up. I assumed I would not meet Kareem again, but I was thankful that I was able to contribute to a local person and profession that often has a hard time making ends meet.
Well, apparently no one lives close to downtown and my plans for a ride were thwarted. And when I checked out the next morning for the last day of the event, Kareem was sitting in his cab outside my hotel. So I waved, opened the door, and said, “Good Morning Kareem.” A smile slowly stretched across his face. He called me John. After re-introducing myself, we began a nice a little conversation about halloween. About halfway through our short cab ride, Kareem made a simple statement:
“World is full of problems, isn’t it?"
Now, I’m not sure why he decided to say this. Maybe people intuit that pastors are especially aware of the world’s brokenness. Hopefully, people see how pastors draw close to people in times of suffering or grief. For whatever reason, Kareem decided to slightly steer the conversation in this direction.
“It sure is Kareem. Just this morning I read about an eight month old baby killed by the Israeli Defense Force by tear gas inhalation."
“Eight months old? That’s bad. That’s really bad. You know, in Islam we believe that God will bring judgment to this world."
And there it was. Simple. Everyday conversations can sometimes naturally flow in and out of a persons belief system. And that’s how it should be. Talking about God should be the easiest thing we do. But it should be noted, it’s not just Christians. Billions of people integrate a life of faith with life itself, where there exists no separation between one’s spiritual life and everything else. And, as a true Wesleyan, I believe God’s grace is present everywhere as we learn to be attuned to where God is already working. And when we learn to see God’s grace outside of the boundaries the church is notorious for constructing, sharing God’s life flows abundantly.
“Kareem, Christians also believe that God’s judgment will come. For us, God grieves when people suffer – that suffering, pain, and hurt are not God’s will. And we see this as good news. There will come a day when God heals the world’s problems.” Kareem smiled a simple smile of recognition, perhaps even kinship.
That’s all I said. We arrived at our destination. I asked him where he was from, and he told me Somalia. He asked if I had ever been to Africa. I was in Egypt five years ago. He knew that was close to the Egyptian Revolution and inquired about the timing of my visit and why I was there. So I was able to share that I was only there for a few days about 6 months before the Egyptian Revolution but I actually spent most my time in Palestine as a Christian peacemaker.
I paid. We shook hands, and said goodbye.
I like these holy conversations.
Thursday, August 20, 2015
A New Reality, a Sad GoodBye
Many of you know that we moved to Kona two years ago after receiving a call from Pastor Ryan Fasani, a friend whom Eric had worked with in Nashville, TN. We didn't move to Kona for the Fasani's or apart from discerning God's direction for us, but knowing the Fasani family, their similar convictions as Christians, and our common hope for the church made moving a lot easier. Justice had instant friendships with Chenoah and Ahanu, and Eric had a theological dialogue partner and co-conspirator for living this radical thing we call the Gospel. We had anticipated this relationship to not only ground us in Kona for the long term, but also provide the germination of a community of disciples committed to one another in grace, love, and practice.
About three weeks before we left for furlough, Pastor Ryan resigned as Pastor of Kona Coast Nazarene. The Fasanis chose to leave Kona to focus on their health as a family, and we continue to pray for them and KCN even in their absence.
But their absence is difficult for us. We have given in at times to fits of anger, overwhelming sadness, spontaneous tears, and all out weeping. We are at times confused, and wrestle with guilt at whether we contributed at all to this outcome. In short, the past summer has been a summer of grief. We are grieving the loss of close family friends; grieving that Justice won't be able to celebrate birthdays with Chenoah; grieving that we can't surf with Katahdin or play soccer with Ahanu; grieving the loss of such a close theological brother, and certainly grieving what could have been with Mission Kona Coast under Ryan's leadership.
Many have asked whether we will step in as Pastors of Kona Coast Nazarene. This is a legitimate question, as both of us are ordained elders in the Church of the Nazarene and have intimate knowledge and experience of our Mission and Vision for our mission zone and the broader Kona Coast.
The short answer is, No. We do not currently feel God leading us to assume the full responsibilities of Pastor. We very much feel that God is using us in our current role as Missionaries, afforded us the freedom to follow and pursue relationships in the community, and continue the work we have already begun in training local leaders for the future of the church on the Big Island. While our work connects deeply with the life of KCN, it is not dependent upon the lead pastor. Our work and ministry will continue, with your continued prayers and support, in the Mission Zone of North Kona.
Many have also asked about the future of Mission: Kona Coast. The truth is that we just don't know. Our District Superintendent, alongside our board, is going through the process of calling a new pastor. We hope and pray that he/she will have the gifts and passions that fit well into our unique culture and mission here in Kona. We know that the transition will bring changes, but we also trust that the work and culture the Fasanis began will continue through the discernment process for a new pastor.
Please keep us and our church ohana in your prayers as we commit to the health of our community during this transition. Mahalo.
About three weeks before we left for furlough, Pastor Ryan resigned as Pastor of Kona Coast Nazarene. The Fasanis chose to leave Kona to focus on their health as a family, and we continue to pray for them and KCN even in their absence.
But their absence is difficult for us. We have given in at times to fits of anger, overwhelming sadness, spontaneous tears, and all out weeping. We are at times confused, and wrestle with guilt at whether we contributed at all to this outcome. In short, the past summer has been a summer of grief. We are grieving the loss of close family friends; grieving that Justice won't be able to celebrate birthdays with Chenoah; grieving that we can't surf with Katahdin or play soccer with Ahanu; grieving the loss of such a close theological brother, and certainly grieving what could have been with Mission Kona Coast under Ryan's leadership.
Many have asked whether we will step in as Pastors of Kona Coast Nazarene. This is a legitimate question, as both of us are ordained elders in the Church of the Nazarene and have intimate knowledge and experience of our Mission and Vision for our mission zone and the broader Kona Coast.
The short answer is, No. We do not currently feel God leading us to assume the full responsibilities of Pastor. We very much feel that God is using us in our current role as Missionaries, afforded us the freedom to follow and pursue relationships in the community, and continue the work we have already begun in training local leaders for the future of the church on the Big Island. While our work connects deeply with the life of KCN, it is not dependent upon the lead pastor. Our work and ministry will continue, with your continued prayers and support, in the Mission Zone of North Kona.
Many have also asked about the future of Mission: Kona Coast. The truth is that we just don't know. Our District Superintendent, alongside our board, is going through the process of calling a new pastor. We hope and pray that he/she will have the gifts and passions that fit well into our unique culture and mission here in Kona. We know that the transition will bring changes, but we also trust that the work and culture the Fasanis began will continue through the discernment process for a new pastor.
Please keep us and our church ohana in your prayers as we commit to the health of our community during this transition. Mahalo.
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
Home
We're home!
As Eric mentioned, furlough was hard. Many missionaries we know choose to have a longer "home assignment" of 5-6 months. We have lived in Hawaii for two years, and this was our first trip back to the mainland as a family. Our trip was five weeks, and we packed that month full. We flew over 9,000 miles and drove another 4,000 miles. Our travel days were long (and frequent), and our two littlest travelers found it hard to be strapped to a seat day in and day out. They met more people than they wanted to (about week 2, Justice said, "I can't remember any more names") and missed home like crazy. We spoke to 20 groups and over a thousand people.
But furlough was good. Life-giving, restorative, and encouraging. We told stories of how God is working, where God is leading, and transformation we are witnessing. We met with other missionaries and church planters. We shared our struggles. We were honest about the work God is doing in our own home. We shared our hope for the future.
We were met with loving and caring individuals. People who are praying for us daily. People who can relate, and people who can't. People who have advice, and people who want to hear more. People who were encouraged to hear and see God's movement. People who were challenged by God's call in their present location. People who want to be a missionary-people in their communities. We are so encouraged by the conversations that began.
And in the midst of that, we visited with our families. We were blessed to see the relationships between our kids and our parents come to life. Relationships we've fostered over FaceTime and Skype, but didn't know what they would look like in person. We were grateful for our kids to play with their cousins, and their aunt/uncles. And we were giddy to hug our own brothers/sisters.
As Eric mentioned, furlough was hard. Many missionaries we know choose to have a longer "home assignment" of 5-6 months. We have lived in Hawaii for two years, and this was our first trip back to the mainland as a family. Our trip was five weeks, and we packed that month full. We flew over 9,000 miles and drove another 4,000 miles. Our travel days were long (and frequent), and our two littlest travelers found it hard to be strapped to a seat day in and day out. They met more people than they wanted to (about week 2, Justice said, "I can't remember any more names") and missed home like crazy. We spoke to 20 groups and over a thousand people.
But furlough was good. Life-giving, restorative, and encouraging. We told stories of how God is working, where God is leading, and transformation we are witnessing. We met with other missionaries and church planters. We shared our struggles. We were honest about the work God is doing in our own home. We shared our hope for the future.
We were met with loving and caring individuals. People who are praying for us daily. People who can relate, and people who can't. People who have advice, and people who want to hear more. People who were encouraged to hear and see God's movement. People who were challenged by God's call in their present location. People who want to be a missionary-people in their communities. We are so encouraged by the conversations that began.
And in the midst of that, we visited with our families. We were blessed to see the relationships between our kids and our parents come to life. Relationships we've fostered over FaceTime and Skype, but didn't know what they would look like in person. We were grateful for our kids to play with their cousins, and their aunt/uncles. And we were giddy to hug our own brothers/sisters.
Friday, July 17, 2015
Furlough Update: Ministry Scholarships
Our family left Kona on June 23. We're now in our fifth week of traveling, sharing the Good News of what God is doing in Kona. And, in complete honesty, it's been so hard! This is our first trip back to the mainland since moving to Hawaii two years ago. Micah was born in Hawaii, and is only 18 months old. Justice is a child of routine and rhythms and does well if those lay undisturbed. Well, furlough disturbs every routine. And we are excited about returning to Kona next week.
Furlough is a time for us to reconnect with family and friends, share our story with our supporters, and fundraise for years 3 and 4 of ministry. We've been sharing how God is raising up local leaders to lead the church in Hawaii. We believe that the work God is doing is going to be continued by those who have grown up in Hawaii, who can connect and guide other locals into God's story of redemption. We've been sharing about our work to re-imagine a culturally appropriate model of training local pastors in an oral culture and that we've started teaching classes this past January. We have 4 people from our congregation discerning a call into ministry. This is Good News!
But we are at a disadvantage because of our geographical isolation. All the pastor fellowships, continuing education, District retreats, and District Assemblies take place on a different island. These are valuable times of gathering for pastors to be inspired, to learn, to form needed relationships/friendships, and to stave off isolation. We want our ministry students to experience at least one of these gatherings each year as they work toward ordination.
This is why we are fundraising in part to offer 'scholarships' for each ministry student that would cover various resources and travel expenses to aid in their development and discipleship. We have 5 scholarships set at $370 a piece. If you are interested in sponsoring one (or more) of these scholarships, let us know! We'd love to talk to you and share a little bit more. Scholarships will still be funneled through the "North/Central Kona Mission" account fund at www.easytithe.com/kcn. Thank you for your continued support!
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Polima Lopez's Testimony
Each month, I (Eric) gather with a group of people discerning a call into ministry to teach a course on "Declaring the Gospel of God." The class focuses on uniting Biblical story-telling with personal narrative; learning to share how our story falls into the scope of God’s story of redemption and communion. I must say, this is one of my favorite parts of the month. Never have I gathered with people who are so interested to learn, compelled to share, and eager to question. It's incredibly refreshing, and I am quite simply blessed to be leading this small cohort.
The class represents the beginning of an answer to prayer. Namely, we have been praying for God to call local leaders to guide the church into the future. For a church that has, in the last 40 years, never planted a church or had someone carry through to vocational ministry, and now to have 5 in the last year speak of their call to ministry points only to God's grace beginning to move. Praise God!
Once a month, we clear space for these students to share their Testimony. This past week, Polima Lopez, our worship minister and a second generation Samoan-American, shared her story during the sermon moment. I wanted to share a little of that story with you:
The fact that I'm standing in front of you today should be testimony enough. I would not have been able to stand here three years ago, but only by the grace of God. Many of you already know some of my struggles. A couple of years ago I believed the convictions of what others said about me, but now I understand that I am a daughter of God. All of the stories growing up wanted to claim me. I didn't know who I was, and so I struggled with my identity. I am a Samoan who grew up in Hawaii. American culture conflicts with being Samoan. The way we talk, our customs, our food, our language is different. And on top of that, my Dad is a Pastor, and so you can throw in religion too. These cultures clash and I was confused. I didn't know how I was supposed to think or act. I grew up thinking I was wrong. But I stand before you now to say, like Paul in Ephesians, that the old is gone and the new has come. I've been through a lot, searching for who I am and I've come to know this: God's grace embraces me, and I'm now able to embrace it.
I think this is a beautiful testimony; It is Limah's story of how God's grace has connected with her – changed her. We all struggle with Identity. We are all shaped by a multiplicity of stories that shape us. I can't connect with being Samoan, but I can connect with the cultural clash between growing up in American culture and my identity as a Christian. I inherit a story from my family: I grew up in Richmond, VA, a middle child of two white conservative evangelical parents. In this simple sentence recounting my past, you can begin to understand a little bit of my story…There’s the story of political allegiance, my parents were conservative, attached to the Republican party. I grew up in the South, which produces pictures of tobacco and cotton fields, deciduous trees, and southern comfort food (sausage and gravy). And I inherited a particular religious story: an evangelical faith. Each of these are various stories that interact and play with one another to form a confusing and muddled story that is my life. I have begun to understand how each has shaped me, though I have struggled with which defines me.
Each of us at some point choose whether to trust these stories that shape who we are, or whether to trust a different story, a story marked by the cross and resurrection. When we choose to trust a different story, to allow our life, the stories we’ve inherited, to be shaped by the story of Jesus found in Scripture and the Church, we call it faith. And we believe that those stories are worth telling.
This past Sunday was Pentecost Sunday. Pentecost is the day that the church remembers the gift of the Spirit that remains with us. It is the day that all the people of Jerusalem stood in confusion hearing their own language from Galileans. In a way, Christ's presence through the Spirit indeed confuses. It ought to confuse and confound our identity so that we may come to a posture that Limah has embraced, God's grace for us, a beloved of God. Emmanuel Katongole puts it like this:
May the work of Spirit continue to un-confuse our past identity, placing us safely in the identity of Christ, so that Christ in us may continue to confuse all other identities.
The class represents the beginning of an answer to prayer. Namely, we have been praying for God to call local leaders to guide the church into the future. For a church that has, in the last 40 years, never planted a church or had someone carry through to vocational ministry, and now to have 5 in the last year speak of their call to ministry points only to God's grace beginning to move. Praise God!
Once a month, we clear space for these students to share their Testimony. This past week, Polima Lopez, our worship minister and a second generation Samoan-American, shared her story during the sermon moment. I wanted to share a little of that story with you:
The fact that I'm standing in front of you today should be testimony enough. I would not have been able to stand here three years ago, but only by the grace of God. Many of you already know some of my struggles. A couple of years ago I believed the convictions of what others said about me, but now I understand that I am a daughter of God. All of the stories growing up wanted to claim me. I didn't know who I was, and so I struggled with my identity. I am a Samoan who grew up in Hawaii. American culture conflicts with being Samoan. The way we talk, our customs, our food, our language is different. And on top of that, my Dad is a Pastor, and so you can throw in religion too. These cultures clash and I was confused. I didn't know how I was supposed to think or act. I grew up thinking I was wrong. But I stand before you now to say, like Paul in Ephesians, that the old is gone and the new has come. I've been through a lot, searching for who I am and I've come to know this: God's grace embraces me, and I'm now able to embrace it.
I think this is a beautiful testimony; It is Limah's story of how God's grace has connected with her – changed her. We all struggle with Identity. We are all shaped by a multiplicity of stories that shape us. I can't connect with being Samoan, but I can connect with the cultural clash between growing up in American culture and my identity as a Christian. I inherit a story from my family: I grew up in Richmond, VA, a middle child of two white conservative evangelical parents. In this simple sentence recounting my past, you can begin to understand a little bit of my story…There’s the story of political allegiance, my parents were conservative, attached to the Republican party. I grew up in the South, which produces pictures of tobacco and cotton fields, deciduous trees, and southern comfort food (sausage and gravy). And I inherited a particular religious story: an evangelical faith. Each of these are various stories that interact and play with one another to form a confusing and muddled story that is my life. I have begun to understand how each has shaped me, though I have struggled with which defines me.
Each of us at some point choose whether to trust these stories that shape who we are, or whether to trust a different story, a story marked by the cross and resurrection. When we choose to trust a different story, to allow our life, the stories we’ve inherited, to be shaped by the story of Jesus found in Scripture and the Church, we call it faith. And we believe that those stories are worth telling.
This past Sunday was Pentecost Sunday. Pentecost is the day that the church remembers the gift of the Spirit that remains with us. It is the day that all the people of Jerusalem stood in confusion hearing their own language from Galileans. In a way, Christ's presence through the Spirit indeed confuses. It ought to confuse and confound our identity so that we may come to a posture that Limah has embraced, God's grace for us, a beloved of God. Emmanuel Katongole puts it like this:
"Christian faith is fundamentally about identity – who we are as embodied people. In Africa as in America, there is a multitude of powers and stories that try to define who we are: the color of our skin, the nation of our birth, the history of our culture, or the characteristics of our tribe. But when I baptize someone into the church of Jesus Christ, I see that God is making a claim on their bodies. Are they still black? Are they still white? Are they still Rwandan? Are they still American? Perhaps. But there is a real sense in which our identity gets confused (mixed up) with Christ's identity in baptism. Who we are becomes (or at least ought to become) confused and confusing to others."
May the work of Spirit continue to un-confuse our past identity, placing us safely in the identity of Christ, so that Christ in us may continue to confuse all other identities.
Saturday, May 9, 2015
Parenting is Hard
We love the little bodies in our house. Our days are filled with so much laughter, questioning, repeat answers, and a few tears. We love the little boy Micah is becoming, and can't help but laugh when he tours the house looking for the best surface to hammer. He climbs, and falls, and races, and explores without abandon. We marvel at Justice's logic, her questioning, her observation of the world and how the pieces work together. She is so verbal. It's exciting, and so, so tiring.
We end our days grateful, certainly blessed, and always exhausted. This little boy likes to throw things, and break things, and run into the street to get a better look at the construction trucks. He sticks his hands straight into a pile of manure, and then throws it.
And this sweet girl. She challenges us. She tests the boundaries and negotiates further. She is a giant ball of emotion; of gladness and excitement, of disappointment and anger. She loves nature. She loves creation. She loves people.
Parenting is hard. But also rewarding. And definitely messy.
We end our days grateful, certainly blessed, and always exhausted. This little boy likes to throw things, and break things, and run into the street to get a better look at the construction trucks. He sticks his hands straight into a pile of manure, and then throws it.
And this sweet girl. She challenges us. She tests the boundaries and negotiates further. She is a giant ball of emotion; of gladness and excitement, of disappointment and anger. She loves nature. She loves creation. She loves people.
Parenting is hard. But also rewarding. And definitely messy.
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Our First Trip to the Mainland!
The last couple of months, we have been trying to confirm and plan our first Furlough trip for this summer. We are in a unique situation as missionaries on the Kona Coast. While we are bi-vocational, and receive a housing allowance from the church, it is still absolutely necessary to raise support (like most missionaries) in order to do the work God has called us to do in one of the highest cost of living locations in the country. We are so grateful for every one who has connected to our story and work, and furlough is a great opportunity for us to share (in person) all that God is doing and continues to do in Kona. Needless to say, we're really excited to see you and wanted to share where we will be speaking.
Furlough Schedule
June 27-28: Chicago/Bourbonnais area (Place TBD)
July 4-5: Southside Church of the Nazarene; Richmond, VA
July 12: First Church of the Nazarene; Nashville, TN
July 19: Hasting Church of the Nazarene; Hastings, MI
While we have scheduled several churches for Sunday mornings, we are hoping to gather with several smaller groups during the week or weekends for more personal engagements for us to share our story with you; and also to celebrate what God is doing in your life and the life of your community. If this is something you're interested in hosting, please let us know!
We'll be sharing more in the near future – both about furlough and ministry updates/stories – but for now, we are excited that furlough will be a time for us to connect with you, perhaps rest a bit, and see family (some of whom have never met Micah). See you soon!
Furlough Schedule
June 27-28: Chicago/Bourbonnais area (Place TBD)
July 4-5: Southside Church of the Nazarene; Richmond, VA
July 12: First Church of the Nazarene; Nashville, TN
July 19: Hasting Church of the Nazarene; Hastings, MI
While we have scheduled several churches for Sunday mornings, we are hoping to gather with several smaller groups during the week or weekends for more personal engagements for us to share our story with you; and also to celebrate what God is doing in your life and the life of your community. If this is something you're interested in hosting, please let us know!
We'll be sharing more in the near future – both about furlough and ministry updates/stories – but for now, we are excited that furlough will be a time for us to connect with you, perhaps rest a bit, and see family (some of whom have never met Micah). See you soon!
Friday, April 10, 2015
Ordination Testimony
Joy and I just returned from District Assembly where I (Eric) was ordained as an Elder in the Nazarene Church. I was blessed to have Joy kneeling with me and Pastor Ryan Fasani praying a blessing over me. I was asked to write a brief, one page, testimony for the ordination service this past Wednesday night. It was not used during the service, so I thought I would post it here for anyone interested. Enjoy!
Ordination Testimony
Eric Paul
April 8, 2015
I received a call to
ministry at a young age. My grandparents were Missionaries on a Navajo
Reservation in New Mexico. Grandpa was a giant in the community, not only
standing taller than most, but respected as one who had, for years, given
himself away wholeheartedly to the people and community who desperately needed
life and hope. It's amazing the kind of work that can be done when you step out
of the way for the sake of another. He died when I was ten years old. A month
later, my call to be a missionary was confirmed and I was baptized.
While the direction
of my life was known, I had no clue how this story would be told; where I would
serve or even in what role. Pastor? Missionary? Teacher? Something altogether
different? While in school I became convinced that God's call is always a call
to discipleship first. Like Peter at the water's edge, Jesus calls and because
it is Jesus and no one else, I follow. All of life is directed toward this
person and is formed by that life. The life of a disciple is a life on the way
to discovering the Kingdom of God all around us. To walk and pray Heaven on
earth. And Jesus' path seemed to always point toward the edge of society, to
the fringes, to the poor and powerless, to those abused, left-out, and
forgotten. Jesus' life tells us that the Kingdom of God is found there and with
those people. And so, I understood a part of my call would be a constant
seeking of the Kingdom of God on the margins.
Phineas Bresee
understood this downward movement of the disciple when he said, "Our
church is a missionary church. It knows no difference between home and foreign
fields- for all fields are near." And when I read these words from our
founder Bresee, I knew that there still might be a place for me within the
Nazarene Church: "The Gospel comes to a multitude without money and
without price, and the poorest of the poor are entitled to a front seat at the
Church of the Nazarene."
Christ's love meets us all uniquely. I struggled
with the church for many years, even as a Pastoral Ministry major at Olivet. In a way, all pastors should. There's a marked difference between what God desires for us to be and do and the modern state of the church. I
walked through church doors, looked around, and didn't see Jesus. When I saw
the church, I couldn't tell the difference between Christians and the rest of
the world. It seemed self serving, existing for its own sake rather than for
God's mission in world. We were just as violent, power hungry, and greedy; only
we hid under an umbrella of grace while not allowing that grace to teach us a
different way.
And yet, Christ's
love would meet me. It would meet me in the steadfast commitment of my wife,
who ironically was on staff at a church. And soon after, Christ's love would
meet in the face of the poor of Nashville, who I witnessed struggle for life
and yet taught me so much about faith and dependence. Christ's nonviolent love
met me in the streets of Palestine, where I saw Palestinian Christians opposing
racism and violence in midst of state oppression. And in all these places, there was a steadfast commitment
to the church. It seems to me that God created the church to be different, to be holy, to
show the world a different way to live altogether. And then I realized that
Jesus' proclamation of the Kingdom of God doesn't make sense without a people
who gather around that message. And it's these people, the gathered we call the
church, who are participating to bring about something entirely and utterly new
to our communities. And I want to be a part of that newness.
Ordination is my
commitment to the pursuit of the Kingdom of God through the Church of the
Nazarene. It is the answering to a call, and it is not everyone's call. But it
is mine. So, I'm thrilled that my story has brought me to this moment, and
under the recognition and affirmation of my calling and gifts in and for the community. So, I
ask for your continued prayers and support as we all learn to give ourselves
away to those around us.
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Lessons in Culture and Discrimination
I (Eric) participate every month in a gathering of social service agencies and community members to discuss community relationships and needs. It's a cooperative group that intends to communicate openly about community issues and work together for a more healthy Kona. This video was passed on to all members, and we thought it appropriate to post it to the blog. We think this conveys well the kind of discrimination that takes place on the islands toward a particular minority group. I work every Wednesday in a gardening project with friends from the Marshall Islands. We know there is some foul language, but the point of the video is important enough to post.
Monday, March 9, 2015
Renovating Holiness Essay
Last year, Pastor Ryan and I submitted an essay for the new book Renovating Holiness that explores a younger generation's understanding and experience with holiness and sanctification. Below is the essay that was published. It is at times more theologically driven this most of our blog posts. You can check out the book here.
As is
the case in Micah 4, only a self-giving community bent toward holiness can envision
and ultimately realize holiness for Hanu’s broken context. Only a community of shalom can realize a
radically different (set apart, holy) way of life together—from the way we consume
and clothe ourselves to how we interact with the broader market economy, from
the way we nurse our babies to the way we adopt unwanted children, from the way
we embrace a diversity of cultures to the way we worship one God, from the way
we use our ploughshares for farming to the refusal to bear arms. These are part
of the Shalom Community—these are all part of Hanu’s sanctification. We find
that we can not talk of Hanu’s holiness apart from the holiness of the
community in which she lives. Imagining and enacting such a community
contextualizes Hanu’s life while caring for both individual and communal growth
in Christ.
“Holiness Now: Resurrection and Shalom on the
Big Island”
Ryan Fasani and Eric Paul
Hanu (hah-noo), an unwed mother of two young children, is a ‘local’ here—she’s
of Polynesian descent, grew up in Hawaii, and considers the culture of the Big
Island normative. Hanu conceived her first child as a teenager. Under the pressures of motherhood, part-time
employment, living in a multigenerational home, and being single, she chose to
complete a GED rather than high school. Her current boyfriend (and father of her
second child) works for a hotel when not serving scheduled, three-month stints
in jail. Cost of living here is beyond their means and they suffer from health
complications and family dysfunction. We have found Hanu’s story very
common. As pastors on the Big Island of
Hawaii, we ask: What does holiness look like for Hanu?
The doctrine of holiness is the
church's articulation of Christ’s life being enacted, through the power of
grace, in the world. The life of holiness is the embodiment of
that truth. However, our observation is
that the doctrine has largely ignored the Christ who came preaching the Shalom Community
as the Kingdom of God, and thus has not been helpful for realizing embodied
holiness. We contend that holiness is
the embodiment of Shalom in a particular place with particular people—where
Christ’s life has become our own.
Consequently, holiness is both contextual (to a particular place) and
communal (to a particular people). We
find it helpful to use the biblical vision of the Shalom Community (Micah 4) to
understand embodied holiness, which is to say that the biblical vision of a
particularly placed people will help us better understand how we ought to
envision holiness for Hanu here and now—in our community.
Hanu and the Holiness of Our Past
Holiness has been taught as a moment of entire sanctification rendered by the
grace of God in an individual's heart. Nazarene understanding of where sanctification
occurs is indicative of where we locate sin: in the heart of the individual. This
is why the adage “justification is what God does for us, sanctification is what God does in us” is so fitting. Sin is rooted in the human heart, and therefore, sanctification also takes root in the human heart. Unfortunately, with
this understanding, holiness can only be understood in contrast to an individual’s
(non-communal) breech of (non-contextualized) faithfulness.
In this way, the Nazarene church has focused on Hanu and her boyfriend’s litany
of personal sins: premarital intercourse, criminal activity, poor financial stewardship.
The Good News for Hanu, from this perspective, is that God forgives and can do
a sanctifying work in her. The bad news
is that it leaves unaddressed a majority of Hanu’s life and therefore a
majority of the healing God desires.
The scriptures are clear that God alone is a holy, self-giving God, and
desires to sanctify Hanu's whole realm of existence (Colossians 1). Locating
sin and sanctification in the heart of the individual certainly offers the
potential for a narrow “inner cleansing” but it ignores the totality of God’s
desire for reconciliation, which includes the breeding ground of Hanu’s sin. We
simply cannot separate the experience of holiness from all that is implicated
in the holy self-giving of God. We
contend that this self-giving and the Kingdom preached by Christ are
all-encompassing—implicating the complex web of relationships and influences in
Hanu’s life. Where Hanu lives, her social and familial network, and the cultural
structures that govern her life are all environments of influence and sinfulness.
Sanctification, then, must be dislodged
from the very limited locale of the heart so that it can be realized as broadly
as God desires.
But Hanu’s life (and sinfulness) is unlike anyone else’s. So too should
sanctification be unique to her experience.
Sanctification must be conceived broadly enough to included Hanu’s whole
sphere experience and particular enough to be realized in her immediate, unique
context. Hanu’s story teaches us that holiness is necessarily both communal and
contextual.
The Shalom Community of Micah 4
Holiness, far from only being the state of a believer’s heart, is God’s
move to restore the intricate web of relationships—personal, social, political,
economic, etc.—in which we all participate. But if God is actively restoring
these relationships, then we must be able to speak in terms of restoring
concrete interpersonal, socio-political and even economic relationships.
Inversely, we must speak of the brokenness-needing-healing in each of those relational
arenas. We must speak of communal brokenness, and the communal context of
restoration. Scripture is ripe with such
articulation. Take for example Micah 4:
In
days to come…
2 many nations shall come
and say:
‘Come,
let us go up to the mountain of the Lord,
to
the house of the God of Jacob;
that
he may teach us his ways
and
that we may walk in his paths...’
3 He shall judge between many
peoples,
and
shall arbitrate between strong nations far away;
they
shall beat their swords into ploughshares,
and
their spears into pruning-hooks;
nation
shall not lift up sword against nation,
neither
shall they learn war any more;
4 but they shall all sit under their
own vines and under their own fig trees,
and
no one shall make them afraid;
for
the mouth of the Lord of hosts has spoken. (Micah 4).
In general, the prophets proclaim words of disaster and optimism, grief and
comfort, apocalyptic end and future hope. But they refuse to divorce “spiritual
health” from the totality of health in communities. When we read and engage
prophetic literature, we must read it through a totalizing “lens of life”: no
aspect of the human experience is excluded from the blessings and ultimate
judgment of God. As such, three
important aspects of Shalom are apparent in this prophetic vision.
First, this is a religious text.
God, judgment, and a divine voice along with particular references to
“the God of Jacob” and “Lord of hosts” are all clear references to a religious
tradition known as Israel. But the
vision itself is hardly “religious,” as if religion were a sector of life
distinct from economy or politics.
Instead, God’s restoration is concrete and practical, a matter of
worship and work.
Second, Micah gives us a broad picture of what the Kingdom will look like
and it’s not only the restoration of individuals. The restoration encompasses individual
estrangement from creation, poverty, starvation, and violence. God’s sanctifying power reaches into every
facet of communal existence.
Third, the prophetic vision is a universal hope but not a universal
reference. In other words, the
particularities of a this-world, communal context are evident. Though there are references to “nations far
away” and “many peoples”, the peaceful community envisioned is not like every
community—it is a particularly placed people.
They are familiar with an agrarian lifestyle (“ploughshares”), which is
to say they are not nomadic and make a living through cultivating soil. They have a history of combat and wield a
particular arsenal of weapons (“swords and spears”). Among them are orchardists (requiring
“pruning-forks”) and vintners or winemakers (“sitting under their vines”). They may have a history of being the
underdog, likely a reference to their small size (“strong nations far away….make[ing]
them afraid”). We get the image of an
agrarian community with a non-aggressive foreign policy or expansion tactic,
relieved to finally put up their weapons to more fully invest in peaceful and
satisfying pursuits of stewarding creation.
The holiness vision of Micah 4 is not limited to God’s sanctification of
the human heart; instead it is a holy restoration of all the complex facets of
a particular community, in and between the concrete lives of neighbors in a
particular place. Holiness is communal.
Holiness is contextual.
Holiness Now
So how does Micah 4 help us understand sanctification for Hanu? Micah clearly
understood the distinctions of the envisioned community. In order to envision redemption and
sanctification, we need to know that which is broken (needing healing) and
unholy (needing to be sanctified). We
can start, then, by better understanding unique brokenness and sin in Hanu’s context.
Many of Hanu’s relationships are strained or broken, creating immense stress,
anxiety, and fear. The consistency
necessary for marital health is abruptly interrupted every few months when her
husband is in jail—vacillating between single parenthood and dual
parenthood. Her living environment is
not conducive to conflict resolution because of the proximity to multiple adult
family members. Discussions often turn to arguments, arguments to abuse. And each sphere of relationship is negatively
affected by her material poverty.
She also suffers from multiple socio-political systems in Hawaii that have
failed: a food system that promotes disease and unhealthy bodies, a punitive
criminal system that dismembers families, an education system that cannot
accommodate unique family needs, an economic system that exacerbates poverty, a
governmental aid system that serves as a disincentive to gainful employment,
and a cultural system that is often ethnically oppressive.
As we learn more about the complexity of Hanu’s brokenness, we begin to see
multiple interlocking spheres. When one
sphere is stressed or broken, the pain (or sin) reverberates into all other
spheres. We believe that God cares and longs to restore the brokenness in each
of these interrelated spheres so that Life and sanctification may be fully
expressed.
The question of holiness could be posed thusly: what if these relationships
could be healed? We contend that this is
the abundant, shalom life that God desires.
When we abandon the belief that sanctification addresses the sinful
heart alone and begin to believe that the self-giving holy God that we worship
desires the complexity of our existence to heal and be made new, then we begin
to harness the imagination of Micah and the Shalom Community. Sin, we believe, is a “heart issue” and a “systems issue” and a “relationship issue” (Ephesians
2), thereby making sanctification holistically relevant and necessary.
For years, the local church created specific programs to heal suffering in
each sphere (i.e. food pantry or ESL classes).
But, in Hanu’s case, her experience and suffering from sin is unique to
her context, rendering generic programs partially effective at best. Because Hanu’s sin is both internal and
systemic, she suffers from a web of brokenness, rendering charitable,
one-dimensional solutions too narrow and mostly unhelpful. The only “solution” we can imagine for Hanu’s
convolution of sin is the slow and gentle inclusion into a worshipping body
that takes seriously God’s call to Life and holiness in every facet of existence.
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